I am learning to live without her. I am getting used to the pain of knowing she is not coming home. I even occasionally allow myself to grasp the idea of the rest of my days without her. I hate all of it.
But today is different. Today, I NEEDED her.
I need her to tell me that it will all be ok. I need to hear her say that my worries won’t change anything and to stop. I need her to reassure me that God is still in control. I need her to hold my hand while I cry for a little bit. [Read more…]